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He loves me, he loves me not - the effects

He loves me/he loves me not ?

- this is the question that stays in her mind every single day .. and even more:

Thoughts like: “Where is he now?”, “Who is he with?”, “Is he thinking about me ?”, “What should I do to make him love me?” are in her mind every day and you can see it her eyes, in her gestures, in her acts.

She defends herself saying that is just a little jealousy came out of true love. But I am wondering if this is really… but I mean really true sign of love.

Moreover, what do you feel when every single day you hear questions like: “Where have you been and who was with you?” or “Why did she look at you that way?” or “When do you get back?” or “Call me from time to time, just to make sure you’re alright”.

Is this “love” or it becomes pressure ?

She starts calling and checking, looking into my mobile, into my inbox, into my files.. into my everything.. I feel like my life is under surveillance.

What is the effect of that?

Will she get my love for being so ..”carrying” with me ?

NOOUUU. No way - almost every single case I know has finally ended with a cheating story.

And there are 2 possibilities:

1. He gives up and tries to escape, looking for freedom, looking for that “virtual woman” he was accused of cheating with - if he is accused for nothing of having an affair, then let it be true at least.

2. She feels the need of punishing him for his behavior and indifference. “I’ll teach him a lesson!”, “I’ll make him suffer as he makes me suffer! I’ll cheat on him with the first occasion.”

Seduction power

I remember having a secret relationship with a woman in the past that I have never made it public. And I was having several reasons: one of them was that I was actually cheating on my girlfriend with this woman and the other one was that she had a quite bad reputation and it might have affected my job too (but she was amazing in bad).

One day I had to take her out; you know, usual thing like having a coffee in a bar. It was a well known bar, right in the city downtown. Although she was looking terribly good, smelling extremely sexy, I was in panic. A mixture of excitement with fear and curiosity was burning me inside out.

I could barely forbid myself to touch her or kiss her. My mind was full of thoughts like what if somebody sees me, what if there is someone here who knows me and would like to say “hi”. I would have been finished - my 2 years girlfriend would have suffered enormously, my friends would have pointed finger on me…

I started to think that I was probably paying for the magic moments this woman have been giving me for the last weeks. Actually I suspected that she did it all on purpose (she chose the bar, she dressed so sexy, she made her hair look like.. crazy and she smelled like .. oh God !). And her plan seemed to work perfectly.

I wasn’t feeling comfortable at all in that otherwise wonderful bar, even if the music was so fine, the sofa so.. relaxing and the woman next to me so.. in love with me.

But she was enjoying the moment big time !

I was suffering but I couldn’t stop it. Attracted by this “bad” woman and her outrageous behavior, I was risking everything (stable relationship, friends, work). I realized that I haven’t experienced such feelings before, while we spent moments inside doors. She was showing me her real value - or.. her real seduction power probably.

Even now I have everything in my memory so crystal clear.

And she knew how to make everything so unforgettable as she went out of my life the very next day..